into the new world...

bismillah.....

salam!~

tajuk post kali ni cm tajuk lagu lak kn?? haha........

after weeks berperang ngan perasaan diri sndiri... skg br terase nk menuleh blk.. haha

(bpe lame dh ek aku x tulis blog.....) cm sengal je banned blog sndiri... sengal kn?? ha3..

btw.. ape y ak nk emphasize kn kt sni adelah... skg ak da mule btol2 accepting de way i am ryte now.. i mean... where i stand ryte now.. and what i am suppose to focus on to...

p/s: to my dearest BC... im sorry.. maybe we're not meant to be together... although i've alwez dream about u since i was in standard 4.. but im sorry... u're no longer in my heart...and i am happy with the way i am ryte now...maybe its just..... i'm not the right person for u... huhu

wassalam....

~iownmydreamandmylife~... with the guidance from ALLAH.. insyaAllah...

_intothenewworld_

adushh.... ke arah perubahan??? mungkinkah??

bismillah...

assalamualaikum...!~

hmm tetibe rse cm menyesal lak bce post2 org td... hmm bkn sbb pe pon nanye... tp pasal result end of module exams ritu.... actually mmg da plan xnk pk sgt psl rsult tuh.. tp pas bce post org.. hati trus trase cm xbest... jwpan y pasti sbb ape im not doing soooo well in my exam is because of myself!! bcoz of my own mistakes!! bcoz of my own fault.... huhu jwpn tu mmg i already knoe it from de beginning... (tp bwt jgk kn??? aduhh2!!!!!!)

hmmm.... dlu mgkin im lucky enough coz bce las minute pon alhmdulillah ok.. tp ak taw result kali ni adelah petanda dr Allah utk ak ubh cara ak blaja... klo pk dr sudut positif... ktekan exam ni pon ak lulus after stdy las minute.. high posibility ak xkn ubh cara ak blaja, n by the end of my stdy.. ak boley jamin... ak akn jd antara org2 y nyesal.. huhuhu..

y pnting.. mtlamat utame ak skg adelah:

>ubah cara blajaku... insyaAllah!!

>blaja utk jd doc.. bkn blaja las min utk lulus exam ( coz salunye after exam ak akn lpe ape y dh dbce...ish3)

>blaja smpai berjaye (till memegang title PEDIATRICIAN.. insyaALLAH)>>> kumpul duet... anta umi n ayh g haji... honda civic... n jordan!!! (insyaAllah)

>blaja smpai mati... sbgai bekalan kt sana nnt... insyaAllah...

wish me all the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

till then,

wassalam...

raya!!!! =D

bismillah...

assalamualaikum...

ni antara gamba2 rya y smpat di snap... huhu.. overall raye kali nih best!!! walaupon umayr sorg je xde... tp my fmly ttp having fun.. at least i'm.. (at least maseh dpt brye di m'sia.. haha)

my youngest sis... nuha..

org ckp kami kembar??? owhh tidak... jauh pggang dr api.. haha

(wit my younger sis.. nana.. )

wit ayh n umi.. b4 sesi 'menadah tgn mengisi poket'.. haha

abg, J, ewa, ina.. mlm b4 rye... last minute shoppin..

kt mcd pacific, aloq setaq.. abg blanje!!!

pnt memasak xyh ckp!~ mmg pnt gile.. haha.. tp skali skala kumpol rmai2 xkesah a pnt kejap.. tp y paling syok aku maseh dpt duet rye.. haha... sebek muke ini blom cukup matured utk mhalang dr menerime duet rye... hahaha

till then,

wassalam

its juz a pain...

what hurts the most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let ‘em out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that im lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that im lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do, oh
Oh yeah

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
(To say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that im lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Not seein' that im lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do, ooo

pengalaman2...

bismillah...

assalamualaikum..!~

semalam... bgn2 pg... (da set dlm mind.. hari ni aku nk blk penang lmbt skit ah.. da janji nk tmn tok g HSB..)

da settle mandi, bsiap sume.. after packing2 all de stuff sume (mcm byk sgt je stuff tuh) n da susun beg tepi katil.. turun la bwh..

"tok.. satg nk p ospital tu kol bpa??"

"pas zohor satg, p njang mai la.. siap cpt.. bang ja trus solat.."

"owkay!"


dipendekkn cite.. tepat jam 4.. tugas menemani tok gi jumpe pakar mate kt HBS (Hospital Sultanah Bahiyah, Aloq Setaq ) pon settle...

"p njang, p njang drop ina kt tpi jln tu pon xpa lah.. satg ina jln la p sana.." (sana tu merujuk kpd Stesen Bas Shahab Perdana, Aloq Setaq)..

kesian kt tok y cm da pening2 tu.. ak pon bwt kputusan xyh la nk susahkn p njang lg.. drop tepi jln dh la.. xyh nk tmn2 ak..

kol 4.45.. bas pon bergerak menuju jeti butterworth....

jam 6 lbey.. terpacaklah kt stesen bas butterworth 2.. usha kiri.. usha kanan.. mne la bas 601 neyh.. pale da berdenyut2 blk nih... igt dmm smlm da recover.. adoii..

(dlm pikiran.. bas ooooo bas... jgn la dtg lmbt2.. cne la den nk bbuke dlm bs neyh...)

jam 7.10.. bas 601 pon smpai...

jam 7.15... bas mule meninggal platform..

(dlm ati.. huuu peningnye pale... sabo2.. sabo muhsina... be tough!!! pose2 nih kne byk sabo...)

jam 7.20... msg dr kama, dyiana n akmal pon masok... sume ala2 berbunyi.. "muhsina, da azan.. slamat bbuke.. "

ngan penoh redha.. ak capai buger MarryBrown y smpatku bli kt shahab td... n air tropicana twister buah tgn jeti butterworth..

maka.... bermulah episod berbuke pose didlm bas RAPIDPENANG bernombor 601....

sob3... mase tu pndg kiri pndg kanan.. baruku sedar... cm xnmpk pon any pompuan pkai tudung kt sni.. any lelaki berupa ala2 melayu pon xde... mcm xde any single muslim pon dlm ni.. except me n de pakcik driver kt dpn tuh..

huuuu.. sedeyhnye tym tu... wlaupon pnglmn ni xseteruk mse first tym blk dr kl sorg2... n sesat kt island kol 4 pg... tp ttp sedeyh... waaaaa.... cm nk nanges je.. ( dlm ati.. sabo2.. sabo muhsina... pengalaman nih... pengalaman!!!)

dpndekkn cite lg... kol 9 lbey... ak da slamat mjejakkn kaki kt pv... wahhh!! rase tym tu mcm home sweet home!!! (uma pv pon ok la... janji ak da slamaT!!) thanx 2 yana coz pick me up kt kailan... muax2!!

tpt jam 9.30 mlm.. seusai mandi, unpacking n solat isya' sume.. mate da smakin berpinar... suhu bdn mkin meningkat...

(katil2!!!! satu2nye bende bermain dipikiran.. )

sesaat kemudian... already off to LALALA land!!!~~



p/s: muhsina xsolat terawih mlm nih... sob2.. demam itu membatas segalanya... =(


wassalam...

23 Ramadhan 1430 H bersamaan 13 September 2009 M