ini kisahku

bismillah...

no wonder rancangan baru kt tv9 tu mcm tittle dia sounds familiar... "ini kisahku".. sounds very familiar isn't??? ;PP

xbrape nk follow sgt but so far br tgk y psl catriona ross n wardina safiyyah... byk iktibar n pengajaran leh dpt... a 'should see' show lah.. if i say "must see" show, jd cm sgt wajib lak... anyway, kesimpulannya....

Allah knows BEST!!! hanya kepadaNya tempat utk kita memohon, tempat bergantung harapan, tempat meluahkan segala keluh kesah. kerana hanya Allah selayak2nya tempat bergantung... Allahuakhbar! Allah Maha Besar....

jom sama2 berdoa......

(8) "رَبَّنَا لَا تُزِغۡ قُلُوبَنَا بَعۡدَ إِذۡ هَدَيۡتَنَا وَهَبۡ لَنَا مِن لَّدُنكَ رَحۡمَةً‌ۚ إِنَّكَ أَنتَ ٱلۡوَهَّابُ"

maksudnya: 'Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau memesongkan hati kami sesudah Engkau beri petunjuk kepada kami dan kurniakanlah kepada kami limpah rahmat dari sisiMu; sesungguhnya Engkau jualah Tuhan Yang melimpah- limpah pemberianNya.' (Ali Imran 3: 8)

amin.. amin.. amin...

selingan... current living status di Hospital Kulim.. ;P

how should i put it in words? hurm, 'maybe O&G isn't that bad?' or 'i never know that A&E could be this interesting!'.... hoho i don't know... but Allah really3X knows BEST... Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah... Allahuakhbar!

what's on my mind now?

to both my parents who encourage me to take medicine (or should i say 'dragging me' into it.. ;P) they really know what's best for me.. ntah ape la agaknya jd if i tekad gk utk amek chemist dlu.. hoho

btol apa y ummi ckp time skola dlu... "ummi tahu apa y terbaik utk ina!"... ok, 'sami'na wa atho'na' (kami dgr dan kami patuh.. ;p) my mom know better... thank you ummi n ayah!~ :D

conclusion:

1. sometime people see the potential in us that ourself couldn't see...

>soo true! that's why la sentiasa kena ask for 2nd opinion.. 3rd,4rd pon boleh...

2. n tak salah menjadi bodoh utk seminit dari jadi bodoh utk selamanya.. tak tahu, tanya! dari jd bodoh sombong!~ erk!

3. n biar buat silap and kena marah dulu, asal lepas tu terima, betulkan n lekatkn dlm ingatan utk selamanya.... ^_^

Alhamdulillah....

p/s: Ramadhan hampir separuh sudah berlalu.. amalan kita???

its not the end lah. chills!

bismillah...

today is the last day of my surgical posting for this 3rd year. sedih.. a word to describe my feeling now. 7 weeks in surgical department of hospital Kulim. hurm. very nice experience.

from a girl who really3X afraid of surgical procedure, who never dare to see any surgical procedure especially dulu2 yang salu dlm TV3 tu.. medicTV. fuh, each n everytime ada org bukak je, she'll run away or the least she can do is close her eye tightly.

once got this task to bedah2 mata lembu in F3, this girl will run to the back of the class, then because the students really have to see! the steps, she only able to intai2 behind her friend. hoho.

then another one, during F5. each class were given the task to bedah one katak, she only able to watch the katak with the chest already been open. all the earlier procedure, huh good thing didn't see. erk. watching all the organ dalaman pon dah telan air liur.

she even crying like CRAZY watching a video on C section procedure... fuh. seriously?!!

NOW....

after all the 180 degree changes within this 3-4 years....

she is the one who always eager to enter the OT, wanting to see all the surgical interventions, the one that always the first to volunteer if any blood taking event, inserting cannula, removing suture and even suturing a wound being offered! ini seriussss.. haha (laughing to herself! kesian)

also, quite a few times she entering OT secretly by herself either during lunch hour or in the evening just to see the operations. haiyyaa seriously this girl.

then, there's one time the consultant offering her to scrub in n joining the green gown but only to watch lah ofcoz. woh. she waited like crazy that evening, but then, the consultant forgot to call her in n she miss her chance. uhu maybe next time. sedih bangat. seriously!

huhu. all the experience within these 7 weeks in surgical department. interesting! serius ckp. tapi ada la quite few time rasa boring GILA, cthnya time2 kne dgr lectures. fuh. korg penah rasa x cmni? "mata korg tgh terbukak besar2 tetiba korg tersengguk?" ha serius ckp i used to experience this during one of the lectures (tapi ni actually kisah after semalaman xtido siapkn case report la! haha.)

tapi... mmg rasa mcm tak nk tukar department, but what to to, life must go on..... sob3X T-T

starting next week and the next 6 weeks will be O&G posting. hurm. Allah know BEST.

Muhsina, be positive lah. at least u can still enter OT. though for quite different purposes. hurm.

no worries! after finishing ALL these things choose lah what u want to choose k, n who knows actually Allah have a better plan for u! ^-^ ALWAYS! believe in Allah. ;)

He already mention in Qur'an....

"boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal itu baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagi kamu. Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui" Al Baqarah 2 : 216

bismillahi tawakkal tu 'alallah.. ^^

alhamdulillah....

"ramadhan tiba, ramadhan tiba, ramadhan tiba.. marhaban ya ramadhan, marhaban ya ramadhan, marhaban ya ramadhan...." ^_^

tazkiyatun nafs

bismillah....

tanggal 5 ramadhan, jumaat, 5 ogos.....

~setelah sekian lama jiwa insan kegersangan dan ketandusan, akhirnya hujan lebat y turun membasahkan dan menghidupkan kembali jiwa insan ini y sering lalai dan leka dgn nikmat dunia~

~tanpa air mata, takkan dikenali apa erti kepayahan.. tanpa air mata, takkan diketahui apa erti keinsafan.. tanpa air mata, takkan diketahui apa erti kehidupan~

"wahai manusia! kamulah yang memerlukan Allah; dan Allah, Dialah Yang Maha Kaya (tidak memerlukan sesuatu), Maha Terpuji." Fatir 35: 15

"boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal itu baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagi kamu. Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui" Al Baqarah 2 : 216

"dan jika Allah menimpakan sesuatu bencana kepadamu, tidak ada yang dapat menghilangkannya selain Dia. dan jika Dia mendatangkan kebaikan kepadamu, maka Dia Maha Berkuasa atas segala sesuatu. Al An'am 6: 17

"katakanlah 'sungguh, Tuhanku melapangkan rezeki dan membatasinya bagi siapa yang Dia kehendaki di antara hamba2Nya' dan apa sahaja yang kamu infakkan, Allah akan menggantikannya dan Dialah pemberi rezeki y terbaik." Saba' 34: 39

" ya Tuhan kami, ampunilah dosa-dosa kami dan tindakan-tindakan kami yang berlebih-lebihan dalam urusan kami, dan tetapkanlah pendirian kami" Ali Imran 3: 147

" ya Tuhan kami, kami telah menganiaya diri kami sendiri, dan jika engkau tidak mengampuni kami dan memberi rahmat kepada kami, nescaya pastilah kami termasuk orang-orang yang rugi." Al-A'raf 7: 23

alhamdulillah....

100% positive!

~bismillah~

100% confirm! i CAN'T go any further in O&G!! for the past 3 years being a medical student i've never been this sure! maybe if i really3X have to do that for the sake of passing the exams n to make sure everything goes well, i'll do it, but to do it just because i want to, huh! that will never do!

100% paeds it is! insyaAllah! (maybe something will pop-in along the way, i'll never know.. i leave it to Allah, He know BEST!)

currently in the process of adapting life in Kulim, Kedah.

new learning environment, new housing area, new food stalls n restaurants, meeting new people and real patients, numerous cases that used to be found only in books n lecture notes!(haha this one... not like the cases are new, it just i AM the one that is new to it ;PP)

insyaAllah, may Allah enlighten the way n makes things easier for me so that the path that i'm planning to take once i finish my medical degree is REAL possible, amin.

ya Allah, ku yakin Engkau akan menunjukkan jalan y terbaik utkku kerana Engkau adalah sebaik2 perancang dan sebaik2 mengatur kejadian. insyaALLAH! ^_^

~alhamdulillah~

langkah tercipta

bismillah....

Semalam aku kelukaan,

Kecewa kehampaan,

Mencalar ketabahan,

Impian seringku harapkan menjadi kenyataan,

Namun tak kesampaian,

Allah…

Inginku hentikan langkah ini,

Bagaikan tak mampu untuk ku bertahan,

Semangat tenggelam lemah daya,

Haruskah aku bertahan,

namun jiwaku berbisik inilah dugaan....

Dan langkahku kini terbuka,

Pada hikmah dugaan

menguji keimanan,

Tak dilontarkanNya ujian diluar kekuatan setiap diri insan..

(Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya.. Al Baqarah :286)

Allah…

Pimpin diriku,

Untuk bangkit semula,

meneruskan langkah perjuangan ini,

Cekalkan hati dan semangatku,

Kurniakan ketabahan........

Agar mimpi jadi nyata..

padaMu ku meminta..

Dan ku mohon agung kudratMu..

Wahai Tuhan Yang Satu...

Segalanya dariMu....

alhamdulillah....

* langkah tercipta.. UNIQUE

.....Ya Muqallibal quluub, tsabbit qalbii ‘alaa diinik...

(Wahai Tuhan yang membolak-balikkan hati, tetapkanlah hatiku agar berpegang pada agama-Mu)

~doa Rasulullah (hadith riwayat Ahmad dan Ibnu Abu Syaibah, Aisya ra.)~