Friday, August 5, 2011

its not the end lah. chills!

bismillah...

today is the last day of my surgical posting for this 3rd year. sedih.. a word to describe my feeling now. 7 weeks in surgical department of hospital Kulim. hurm. very nice experience.

from a girl who really3X afraid of surgical procedure, who never dare to see any surgical procedure especially dulu2 yang salu dlm TV3 tu.. medicTV. fuh, each n everytime ada org bukak je, she'll run away or the least she can do is close her eye tightly.

once got this task to bedah2 mata lembu in F3, this girl will run to the back of the class, then because the students really have to see! the steps, she only able to intai2 behind her friend. hoho.

then another one, during F5. each class were given the task to bedah one katak, she only able to watch the katak with the chest already been open. all the earlier procedure, huh good thing didn't see. erk. watching all the organ dalaman pon dah telan air liur.

she even crying like CRAZY watching a video on C section procedure... fuh. seriously?!!

NOW....

after all the 180 degree changes within this 3-4 years....

she is the one who always eager to enter the OT, wanting to see all the surgical interventions, the one that always the first to volunteer if any blood taking event, inserting cannula, removing suture and even suturing a wound being offered! ini seriussss.. haha (laughing to herself! kesian)

also, quite a few times she entering OT secretly by herself either during lunch hour or in the evening just to see the operations. haiyyaa seriously this girl.

then, there's one time the consultant offering her to scrub in n joining the green gown but only to watch lah ofcoz. woh. she waited like crazy that evening, but then, the consultant forgot to call her in n she miss her chance. uhu maybe next time. sedih bangat. seriously!

huhu. all the experience within these 7 weeks in surgical department. interesting! serius ckp. tapi ada la quite few time rasa boring GILA, cthnya time2 kne dgr lectures. fuh. korg penah rasa x cmni? "mata korg tgh terbukak besar2 tetiba korg tersengguk?" ha serius ckp i used to experience this during one of the lectures (tapi ni actually kisah after semalaman xtido siapkn case report la! haha.)

tapi... mmg rasa mcm tak nk tukar department, but what to to, life must go on..... sob3X T-T

starting next week and the next 6 weeks will be O&G posting. hurm. Allah know BEST.

Muhsina, be positive lah. at least u can still enter OT. though for quite different purposes. hurm.

no worries! after finishing ALL these things choose lah what u want to choose k, n who knows actually Allah have a better plan for u! ^-^ ALWAYS! believe in Allah. ;)

He already mention in Qur'an....

"boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal itu baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagi kamu. Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui" Al Baqarah 2 : 216

bismillahi tawakkal tu 'alallah.. ^^


alhamdulillah....

"ramadhan tiba, ramadhan tiba, ramadhan tiba.. marhaban ya ramadhan, marhaban ya ramadhan, marhaban ya ramadhan...." ^_^


tazkiyatun nafs

bismillah....

tanggal 5 ramadhan, jumaat, 5 ogos.....

~setelah sekian lama jiwa insan kegersangan dan ketandusan, akhirnya hujan lebat y turun membasahkan dan menghidupkan kembali jiwa insan ini y sering lalai dan leka dgn nikmat dunia~

~tanpa air mata, takkan dikenali apa erti kepayahan.. tanpa air mata, takkan diketahui apa erti keinsafan.. tanpa air mata, takkan diketahui apa erti kehidupan~

"wahai manusia! kamulah yang memerlukan Allah; dan Allah, Dialah Yang Maha Kaya (tidak memerlukan sesuatu), Maha Terpuji." Fatir 35: 15

"boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal itu baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagi kamu. Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui" Al Baqarah 2 : 216

"dan jika Allah menimpakan sesuatu bencana kepadamu, tidak ada yang dapat menghilangkannya selain Dia. dan jika Dia mendatangkan kebaikan kepadamu, maka Dia Maha Berkuasa atas segala sesuatu. Al An'am 6: 17

"katakanlah 'sungguh, Tuhanku melapangkan rezeki dan membatasinya bagi siapa yang Dia kehendaki di antara hamba2Nya' dan apa sahaja yang kamu infakkan, Allah akan menggantikannya dan Dialah pemberi rezeki y terbaik." Saba' 34: 39

" ya Tuhan kami, ampunilah dosa-dosa kami dan tindakan-tindakan kami yang berlebih-lebihan dalam urusan kami, dan tetapkanlah pendirian kami" Ali Imran 3: 147

" ya Tuhan kami, kami telah menganiaya diri kami sendiri, dan jika engkau tidak mengampuni kami dan memberi rahmat kepada kami, nescaya pastilah kami termasuk orang-orang yang rugi." Al-A'raf 7: 23


alhamdulillah....

Monday, June 6, 2011

100% positive!


~bismillah~

100% confirm! i CAN'T go any further in O&G!! for the past 3 years being a medical student i've never been this sure! maybe if i really3X have to do that for the sake of passing the exams n to make sure everything goes well, i'll do it, but to do it just because i want to, huh! that will never do!

100% paeds it is! insyaAllah! (maybe something will pop-in along the way, i'll never know.. i leave it to Allah, He know BEST!)


currently in the process of adapting life in Kulim, Kedah.


new learning environment, new housing area, new food stalls n restaurants, meeting new people and real patients, numerous cases that used to be found only in books n lecture notes!(haha this one... not like the cases are new, it just i AM the one that is new to it ;PP)

insyaAllah, may Allah enlighten the way n makes things easier for me so that the path that i'm planning to take once i finish my medical degree is REAL possible, amin.


ya Allah, ku yakin Engkau akan menunjukkan jalan y terbaik utkku kerana Engkau adalah sebaik2 perancang dan sebaik2 mengatur kejadian. insyaALLAH! ^_^


~alhamdulillah~

Thursday, March 24, 2011

langkah tercipta

bismillah....


Semalam aku kelukaan,

Kecewa kehampaan,

Mencalar ketabahan,

Impian seringku harapkan menjadi kenyataan,

Namun tak kesampaian,


Allah…

Inginku hentikan langkah ini,

Bagaikan tak mampu untuk ku bertahan,

Semangat tenggelam lemah daya,

Haruskah aku bertahan,

namun jiwaku berbisik inilah dugaan....


Dan langkahku kini terbuka,

Pada hikmah dugaan

menguji keimanan,

Tak dilontarkanNya ujian diluar kekuatan setiap diri insan..

(Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya.. Al Baqarah :286)


Allah…

Pimpin diriku,

Untuk bangkit semula,

meneruskan langkah perjuangan ini,

Cekalkan hati dan semangatku,

Kurniakan ketabahan........


Agar mimpi jadi nyata..


padaMu ku meminta..


Dan ku mohon agung kudratMu..

Wahai Tuhan Yang Satu...

Segalanya dariMu....


alhamdulillah....


* langkah tercipta.. UNIQUE




.....Ya Muqallibal quluub, tsabbit qalbii ‘alaa diinik...
(Wahai Tuhan yang membolak-balikkan hati, tetapkanlah hatiku agar berpegang pada agama-Mu)
~doa Rasulullah (hadith riwayat Ahmad dan Ibnu Abu Syaibah, Aisya ra.)~

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

thank you Allah

bismillah...

"Robbanaa la tuzigh quluubanaa ba'da idz hadaytanaa wa hab lanaa milladunka rahmah innaka antal Wahhab" Ali Imran 3: 8

“Ya Allah, janganlah Engkau pesongkan hati kami sesudah Engkau memberi petunjuk kepada kami, dan kurniakanlah kepada kami rahmat dari sisi-Mu, sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pemberi (banyak memberi rezeki).” Ali Imran 3 : 8


thank you Allah (Alhamdulillah)

I was so far from You
Yet to me You were always so close
I wandered lost in the dark
I closed my eyes toward the signs
You put in my way
I walked everyday
Further and further away from You
Ooooo Allah, You brought me home
I thank You with every breath I take.

Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah
Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah.

I never thought about
All the things You have given to me
I never thanked You once
I was too proud to see the truth
And prostrate to You
Until I took the first step
And thats when You opened the doors for me
Now Allah, I realized what I was missing
By being far from You.


Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah
Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah.

Allah, I wanna thank You
I wanna thank You for all the things that You've done
You've done for me through all my years I've been lost
You guided me from all the ways that were wrong
And did you give me hope

O Allah, I wanna thank You
I wanna thank You for all the things that You've done
You've done for me through all my years I've been lost
You guided me from all the ways that were wrong
I wanna thank You for bringing me home


Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah
Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah.

by: MZ~


.....Ya Muqallibal quluub, tsabbit qalbii ‘alaa diinik...
(Wahai Tuhan yang membolak-balikkan hati, tetapkanlah hatiku agar berpegang pada agama-Mu dan ketaatan kepada-Mu)
~doa Rasulullah (hadith riwayat Ahmad dan Ibnu Abu Syaibah, Aisya ra.)~


alhamdulillah...

ALLAH know!

"dan Dialah y menidurkan kamu pada mlm hari dan Dia mengetahui apa y kamu kerjakan pada siang hari. kemudian Dia membangunkan kamu pada siang hari utk disempurnakan umurmu y telah ditetapkan. kemudian kepadaNya tempat kamu kembali, lalu Dia memberitahukan kepadamu apa y tlh kamu kerjakan." Al-An'am 6: 60

motivating one-self!~

"la yukallifullahu nafsan illa wus'aha"
Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya" al-Baqarah 2: 286

~~kadang kala Allah sembunyikan matahari, Dia datangkan petir dan kilat.. kita tertanya-tanya, kemana hilangnya mentari?? rupa-rupanya Allah gantikannya dengan sang pelangi yang indah... ^_^