perasaan itu....

bismillah.....

perasaan itu. perasaan itu, yang apabila ia datang, seluruh darah bagai mengalir ke muka. peluh bertitisan merembes ke seluruh organ kulit. jantung berdegup kencang. nafas turun naik.

ya, perasaan itu. perasaan y hanya Allah y benar2 tahu akan ia.

perasaan itu...... adalah perasaan amarahmu.

andai ia kau suburkan lagi dengan prasangka buruk, dengki, dendam. maka ia akan menjadi sesuatu y membakarmu. merosakkan pemikiranmu dan hanya akan membawamu ke jalan y lebih hina. hina di mata Allah dan hina di mata manusia.

tapi, andai amarahmu kau baluti ia dgn kesabaran, kau jiruskan dgn ketenangan, kau palitkan dgn keredhaan kepadaNya. maka lihatlah hasilnya. kau sndiri akan terpesona...

kau sendiri harus sedar, yang segalanya datang dari Dia, ditentukan oleh Dia dan akan kembali kepadaNya. arakian, andai apa yang kau hilang itu adalah yang kau cari di dunia ini. maka hidupmu ini umpama tiada apa-apa. kerana? apa yang kau hilang tatkala ini TIDAK AKAN SESEKALI PERNAH kau bawa ke akhirat nnt. sebaliknya apa y kau akan bawa hanyalah amalmu.

amalmu. amalmu. amalmu.

apakah dia amalmu???

apa y kau hilang itu bukan amalmu, tapi amalmu adalah apa y kau lakukan tatkala ia hilang darimu, amalmu adalah perasaanmu bila ia hilang darimu, amalmu adalah.... apa yang kau beranggapan pada Allah tatkala segala ini berlaku.

DAN....

maka bersaksilah sekalian yang membaca post ini. bahawasanya, pemulis ini yang dari asalnya penuh dgn perasaan itu, akhirnya mampu bertenang dan tersenyum malah menarik nafas kelegaan tatkala dia percaya bahawa segala y terjadi, PASTI ada kebaikan disebaliknya... insyaAllah.. ;)

alhamdulillah, thummal hamdulillah..

the first step

bismillah...

assalamualaikum n good day everyone!~ ^^

a fruit full discussion between me and one non-Muslim MO in psychiatric dept...

me: I am frustrated on how ignorance people are regarding the humanitarian issues in Palestine, Syria and lots of other places that really need our attention. people are preoccupied with all the other things; sports, entertainment, etc EXCEPT this one. it makes me really upset and angry and i keep on wondering on how would i change the mind-setting of people around me.

Dr: u can't never change people's thought by asking them to change. u'll just making yourself become angrier, restless and  upset by doing that. what should u do is change yourself first, do what u expect them to do, show good examples, and sooner or later, they'll realize it. Though the process might takes days, months or even years. for example, when u expect your siblings to take out the rubbish, you yourself have to make the move. 1st week, 2nd week, 3rd week, just do it without saying a word. at one point, they surely will realize it. At the same time, u'll be more relax, calm and not stressing yourself out.

*subhanallah.. it is really hard for me to listen to other people advise (because u know how stubborn i am)... but listening to the Dr advise was really an eye opening event...

it makes me think again..... Allah have mention,

"wahai orang-orang yang beriman! mengapa kamu mengatakan sesuatu yang tidak kamu kerjakan? (itu) sangatlah dibenci di sisi Allah jika kamu menyatakan apa yang tidak kamu kerjakan." As-Saff 61: 2-3

"mengapa kamu menyuruh orang lain (mengerjakan) kebajikan, sedangkan kamu melupakan dirimu sendiri." Al-Baqarah 2: 44

astaghfirullahal 'azim. so instead of getting upset by the situation.. it is ME MYSELF that should start the first step. and not expecting other people to start it first.

"dan siapakah yang lebih baik perkataannya daripada orang yang menyeru kepada Allah dan mengerjakan kebaikan dan berkata, 'sungguh, aku termasuk orang-orang muslim(yang berserah diri)?'" Fussilat 41: 33

In other situation, thought i might already do it but surely the efforts was just not enough!

"dan (sifat-sifat yang baik itu) tidak akan dianugerahkan kecuali kepada orang-orang yang sabar dan tidak dianugerahkan kecuali kepada orang-orang yang mempunyai keberuntungan yang besar." Fussilat 41: 35

i was embarrassed with myself because as a Muslim who read the Qur'an, i should have know this.. but surely, i should realize that

 'man always do mistakes, 

 a good man realize his mistakes, 

a better man learn from the mistakes,

but the best man realize the mistakes, learn from it and not doing it again'

Allah always have reason for everything that happen and i'm DEFINITELY not a perfect person.
not a single person in this world is perfect EXCEPT him, Muhammad (peace be upon him)..

*"sungguh, telah ada pada (diri) Rasulullah itu suri teladan yang baik bagimu (iaitu) bagi orang yang mengharap (rahmat) Allah dan (kedatangan) hari kiamat dan yang banyak mengingat Allah." Al-Ahzab 33: 21

that's why, for every single thing that we do, we must ALWAYS come back to Allah. He's The One PERFECT Planner of all and its in His hand everything that happen, happen.. AllahuAkhbar.

"dan apa pun yang kamu perselisihkan padanya tentang sesuatu, keputusannya (terserah) kepada Allah. (Yang memiliki sifat-sifat demikian) itulah Allah Tuhanku. kepada-Nya aku bertawakal dan kepada-Nya aku kembali" Asy-Syura 42: 10

in conclusion.... CHANGE to a BETTER muslim, not a PESSIMIST one.. ^^

alhamdulillah thummal hamdulillah...

critical reflection on my elective posting. ^^

bismillah.. 

*this is a true copy of the critical reflection on my elective posting which was done during my 3th year semester breaks... at first i thought to take this one as THE elective posting but surely, being a teacher give me the most memorable experiences.. ;)

CRITICAL REFLECTION

When I first ask my mother to help me find a job as a teacher in Al-Amin Islamic Secondary School, Gombak (SMIAAG), I was skeptical either I can teach or not. To tell the truth, I really looked down to myself because in my head, I always believe that I am a very bad teacher. Even my 2 younger sisters keep on telling me I am a bad teacher because whenever they ask me questions regarding their homework; I rarely knew how to cater them with guides on how to answer the questions. Which then I subsequently will ask them to go and ask my elder sister which in my opinion is a much better teacher than I am.

Though initially I doubt my ability to teach, I challenge myself to prove that I can teach. That is why I choose my elective posting to be a teacher. I work there as a substitute teacher for about 2 months or more accurately for the whole semester breaks. For the first month, I substitute a teacher who teaches Chemistry form 4 and Science form 3. It was unimaginable at first to teach such heavy subjects to form four students and PMR candidates. However, I believe that everything happen for a reason and God will always give the best for His servants. That is why I put my best effort to teach the students.  

Whereas, for the other 1 month I have to substitute a teacher who teaches History form 4 and Geography form 3 and 1. This time, it really strikes me because previously during my time as a school student, History is one of the subjects that I dislike because of the factual and its long explanations. But likewise, I believe that everything that comes in my way is always for my best interest and therefore I put my best to revise and restudy the subject for the good of my students.

I can clearly remember for the first class I enter, which is a form 4 Chemistry class; my hand was shaking and trembling. It is a completely different feeling from sitting next to patient, taking history and examines the patient. I could feel that all eyes are on me and ready to condemn me because I am a new teacher. Furthermore, I am scared I might give them wrong information about the topics that I need to teach. I already did my best to prepare for the class; I do notes, I read the books but I am still surrounded by worries that I might teach the students inadequately.

In addition, as an Islamic secondary school, all the students have additional classes of tilawah and hafazan every morning. So, the teachers have to teach and guide the students during these tilawah and hafazan classes. At first, a lot of thoughts come to my mind, for examples, am I good enough in these areas to correct and guide them? Or what if it is me who need the guidance? Then I quickly erase these thoughts and plant in new thoughts. If I do mistakes, I will apologize, if I need guidance, I will quickly find one, and if I lack of knowledge, I will seek more knowledge before entering the classes. With these thoughts I embrace myself with a hope that I can do well, insyaAllah.

From this experience I have learned that we will never know our true capability whether we are good or bad at something until we try to do it by ourselves. I never knew that I can teach but this experience have prove that I can, insyaAllah. Secondly, I have learned that to be successful in some area, we need to master that area first. As for me, I really thought that teaching all those subjects are very difficult, but with great effort and luck, Alhamdulillah I manage to do it.

From this experience, I have also learned that a good teacher is someone who teaches not only with mind, but also with heart. Because I believe that being a teacher is a really noble job. There is a saying, "GIVE ME A FISH AND I EAT FOR A DAY, TEACH ME TO FISH AND I EAT FOR A LIFE TIME". This must be a philosophy of a good teacher. In my opinion, a teacher should be patient and kind, flexible and resourceful, tolerant and open minded with a good sense of humor. A teacher should also be honest, helpful, humble and modest. I really would like to express thousand millions of gratitude to all my teachers since I was a school child until now. It is true that learning process never end until the day we took our last breath.

*alhamdulillah thummal hamdulillah... ;)

dear sisters

bismillah... 


Ya ukhti.. 
andai hidup tidak dihadiri lelaki , tidak bermaksud diri tidak diingini. usah khuatir kerana cinta Allah itu pasti, Allah memelihara hati & jiwa daripada dikecewakan & didatangi penyakit (riak). 

wanita yang sentiasa menjadi dambaan lelaki adalah wanita yang longgar jagaannya oleh Allah , atau Allah sedang menguji dengan penyakit hati. 

dekatkan diri dengan Illahi , pasti cinta kau temui , usah diharap insan yang kau sendiri tidak pasti . diamkan lelaki yang kau sukai , berdoa pada Illahi. InsyaAllah kau pasti dicari. jagalah hubungan dengan Allah & Allah pasti akan mnjagamu .

semoga Allah SWT permudahkan segala urusan kita & menganugerahkan kita pasangan yang melabuhkan cintanya kepada Pencipta. Amin ^_^




alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal... ;)

He's never far away.. ;)

bismillah...

Ketika ku bersedih…
Kepada siapa aku harus mengadu…
Ketika hatiku lara…
Kepada siapa aku menyalah…
Hanya ada Allah ta’ala disampingku, yang selalu memberiku kekuatan…
Memberi ku harapan akan terangnya dunia ini

Ketika aku bersedih…
Ingatlah tentang ini :

Kenapa Rasa Frustasi?
Al-Qur’an menjawab :
“Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah dan jangan pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamu lah orang2 yang paling tinggi derajatnya jika kamu orang2 yang beriman” (Surat Al-Imran : 139)

Kenapa Aku tidak mendapat apa yang aku idamkan?
Al-Quran menjawab :
“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat sangat baik bagi mu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia sangat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui (Surat Al-Baqarah : 216)

Kenapa aku di uji?
Al-Quran menjawab :
“Apakah manusia itu mengira bahwa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan :”Kami telah beriman” sedang mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya kami telah menguji orang-orang yang sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya dia mengetahui orang2 yang benar dan dia mengetahui orang2 yg dusta” (Surat Al-Ankabut : 2-3)

Aku tak tahan!!
Al-Quran menjawab :
“…dan janganlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dari rahmat Allah melainkan kaum kafir” (Surat Yusuf : 12)

Kenapa Ujian Seberat ini?
Al-Qur’an menjawab :
“Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya” (Surat Al-Baqarah : 286)

Dan bagaimana aku harus menghadapinya?
Al-Qur’an menjawab :
“Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan shalat dan sesungguhnya shalat itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang2 yang khusyuk”(surat Al-Baqarah : 45)

Kepada siapa aku berharap?
Al-Quran menjawab :
“Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada tuhan selain dari Nya. Hanya kepada Nya aku bertawakal” (surat At-Taubah : 129)

Apa yang aku dapat dari semua ini?
Al-Quran menjawab :
“Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dari orang-orang mu’min, diri dan harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga untuk mereka…” (surat At-Taubah : 111)

Dan selalu ingatlah ini :
“… Allah SWT tidak menjanjikan langit itu selalu biru, bunga selalu mekar dan mentari selalu bersinar. Tapi ketahuilah bahwa Dia selalu memberi pelangi disetiap badai, senyum disetiap air mata, berkah disetiap cobaan dan jawaban disetiap doa…”


alhamdulillah... :')