Bismillah..
Im not sure how did i developed this feelings but one thing for sure it keep on growing, growing & continue growing.
That feeling of irritated and annoyed with all this. The things that i used to enjoy doing but now the excitement fading by time.
I couldnt help it but i did acknowledging the feelings and let it grow day by day.
Why?
Because i couldnt see any hopes in it. I couldnt see my future there. The things i longing before doesnt seem appealing anymore.
Losing interest?
Yes.
Choose to do so?
Not really.
But i believe if it is meant to be then it will be. If it not our destiny then it will not be.
Its Him that hold our heart. Its Him who hold our emotions. Its Him that hold the Qada' & Qadr.
We the human, His slaves, mere powerless tiny little creature can only try our best and pray for the best.
Some time what we want doesnt suit us, some other time unexpected things happen but indeed that benefits us.
I do hope as long as im still here i will be doing some good thing to others and once im away from all this, i really hope i can strive in the things that both good for me as well as giving me that pleasure of doing it.
Till then, just keep on swimming Muhsina. May Allah bless.
Alhamdulillah.
