me and her.

bismillah.

it's been 4 years since i'm with her. through thick and thin.
tons of money i spend on her, non she spend on me.
nevertheless, she still stay with me,
brings me anywhere i wanna go. whenever i want.
no complaints, but with few rebellious acts.

i thanked God for sending her. through my dad i know her.
through my dad i fell in love with her.
the 1st year we've been together, our friendship was GREAT.
nothing comes between us. i thanked God for sending her.

then one day i force her to join me balik kampung.
though i know it could trouble her, but i need her. fullstop.

on the way back from kampung, she started her rebellious act.
i know its my fault, but i blame her for being too spoiled.

since then, our friendship started to have cracks here and there.
i blame her for being too weak. but i know i'm the one who should hold the responsibility.
i spend lots of money. on HER. but i know my father spend more.
all to make her become well again. to play with me more.... to layan my karenah more.

but it seems like a non stop journey. i spend more money on her. more and more.
hoping, praying.
that one day, no more money should i spend on her.
but it is so not going to happen.

tonight, she did it again.
even worse, she left me alone. in the middle of the night. in the middle of the highway.
on my way back from kepala batas, penang to alor setar, kedah.
my bigger fault, my phone went off at that crucial moment.

dear friend, i shall say i had enough of you.
but i can't. since you have been with me for so long.
please. please be nice to me again.
stop all those cranky attitude.
i can't take it anymore. please.

dear Greenie. please be well again. :'(

this is her... she looks healthy isn't? 

*through her.. i learn quite few things about car. where and what is the radiator, cooling coil, radiator fan, the air cond gas container (or something), spark plug, timing belt and some other things that i-don't-think-i'll-know-if-she didn't-fall-sick-again-and-again..er. it wasn't much. but i don't think i wanna know more.... had enough.

anyway, alhamdulillah for everything that happen. what shall i say? nothing much but it means everything.

ALHAMDULILLAH A'LA KULLI HAL. ^_^

insan teristimewa

bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

wahai Tuhan yang Maha Pengasih, lagi Maha Penyayang.
terima kasih y tidak terhingga ku ucapkan padaMu.
kerana menghadirkan seorang insan y begitu istimewa buatku.

dia sentiasa ada disisiku.
walau dekat atau jauh. dia sentiasa ada dalam hatiku.
saatku berduka. dia sentiasa ada. memberi sepenuh sokongan.
saatku gembira. dia tersenyum mesra. melambai penuh kebanggaan.

hadirnya mengundang kedamaian.
senyumnya mengundang ketenangan.
usikannya menguntum senyuman.

ya Allah.
Kau dakapilah dia dengan sepenuh kasih sayangMu.
Kau peliharalah dia dengan sepenuh kekuasaanMu.
Kau lindungilah dia dengan sepenuh kekuatanMu.

dia terlalu istimewa utkku ya Allah.
jangan biarkan kesedihan melanda dirinya.
jangan biarkan kepayahan menimpa dia.
Kau bantulah dia, Kau kuatkanlah dia dgn kekuatanMu ya Allah.

ku merayu ya Allah.
Kau ampunkan semua dosa-dosanya dan Kau peliharalah dia dari azab nerakaMu
jangan Kau biarkan walau sedikit bara api neraka itu menyentuhnya.
lindungilah dia dari siksaMu ya Allah.

ya Allah.
Kau masukkanlah dia kedalam syurgaMu, yang penuh kenikmatan itu.
dia begitu layak mendapat kurniaMu, dia begitu layak mendapat syurgaMu.
kerana terlalu banyak jasa yang telah dia curahkan.
kerana terlalu banyak pengorbanan yang telah dia taburkan.

ya Allah.
ku bersyukur tidak terhingga atas nikmat kehidupan y Kau berikan padaku.
walau penuh dugaan dan cabaran.
Engkau telah menghadiahkan insan teristimewa utkku.
tidak dapat aku bayangkan dia tiada disisiku.
mungkin akan ku tangisi sampai tiada lagi deru air y mampu mengalir.

ya Allah.
pintaku..
jangan Engkau ambil dia sebelum aku ya Allah.
biarlah aku dahulu y menemuiMu. kerna..
tidak mampu aku menghadapi saat Kau mengambilnya dulu ya Allah. tidak ya Allah.

ya Allah.
Kau tuntunnya kejalanMu, dan pimpinlah kami sekeluarga kearahMu ya Allah..
Kau makbulkanlah permintaan hambaMu yang hina ini.
Kau perkenankanlah doa insan penuh dosa ini.
amin ya Rabbal Alamin..

beribu2 kesyukuran ku panjatkan padaMu atas kurniaan seorang insan bergelar AYAH.

to my most beloved person in the whole world. ayah... Hassan bin Unir.

alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal....