Infected

Bismillah..

My daughter was recently admitted to ward for 5 days for pneumonia. Positive pneumoccocal virus. 

Procrastinating. That blame should be put on me. If we have taken her for the pneumoccocal vaccination she might not be infected with it. Or her symptoms might not be so bad. 

But things happen, so once she is better we will jab her with the vaccine. PROMISE. INSYAALLAH.

But now, another issue has arised. Im now suffer from high grade fever and very bad cough and runny nose. Now entering 4 days. Most likely cause? Infected from my daughter of course. 

Persistent spiking temperature (highest documented is 39.4'c), chills and rigor, light headedness, sore throat, greenish sputum. 

Honestly speaking, i realize my temporary illness is nothing compare to other people suffering. 

But deep inside me, im sadden by the fact that when my child is sick, she have both me n my husband to care for her. But when im sick, i still need to do my tagcall (coz im recently transferred to new hospital, so everything i need to start from zero again) or else the 1st impression of me here will not be so good. 

But who am i to deny my own body needs? I force myself but me myself suffer the consequences. Lying alone in the oncall room. Aircond, fan all switch off, 3 layers of blanket, regular panadol ingestion. Yet still shivering as if im in a freezer. Im feeling bad for my 1st call for my bad performance but sorry is definitely not enough to back up my flaws. The next day i still went to ward round but with the shivering and all i cant concentrate much. 

After finished round with specialist, i excuse myself and went to the staff clinic. So later on, here i am on MC leaves for 2 days, with a bundle of medications to finish and hopefully tomorrow i can get back to the normal me and work as usual. 

#mayAllahbless

Alhamdulillah.