baru 2 minggu aku memulakan posting di department baru iaitu orthopaedic department. berbanding dengan paediatric posting, terlalu banyak yang aku belajar (dan perlu di revise) walau baru 2 minggu berada di posting ini.
Allah, Allah, Allah. aku merasakan the pace is too fast. yes, its TOO fast.
jika dibanding paediatric posting, sehingga minggu kelapan, aku masih confius, rasa byk masa terhabis dgn clerk patient, main dgn the kids.. tapi dlm posting ni, hanya dalam jangka masa 2 minggu ini seperti TERLALU banyak topik y perlu aku cover sblm clerk patient, examine patient. especially ANATOMY.! lectures terlalu banyak, bedside teaching terlalu banyak smpai aku rasa banyak ilmu y slip through my mind compare apa y melekat dalam otak. bila balik untuk revise, aku merasakan banyak y aku miss untuk catat apa y perlu di revise.
tidak. aku tidak menyalahkan specialists kerana hal ini malah aku SANGAT berterima kasih kerana byk masa diluangkan utk mengajar kami.
tetapi kesalahan terletak pada bahu aku sendiri. ya, aku terlalu berada di comfort zone sebelum ini. segalanya aku katakan ingin mengikut pace sendiri. 'even if its a change, i want to follow my own pace'.
now, I admit this is the moment when I agree to the dear Dr which I previously said to him that 'I insist of following my own pace'.
a piece of advice to myself:
if the pace is too fast, walk fast.!
complaining will not solve the problem.
giving up will not solve the problem.
slowing down your pace would NEVER solve the problem.
obstacles are mean to be overcome. it is a stepping stone to be on the next level.
peristiwa semalam menyedarkan aku,
its time to wake up. i'm already in the last posting of this 2nd semester. which mean after i finish my end of semester exam, and insyaAllah pass my exam, i'm a 5th year student already. n by Allah's will, by 2014 i'm a doctor already. its no longer time to jokes around or hide behind the bushes. its time to get serious. by Allah's will, i'm going to help people, cure them, treat them, improve their quality of life and of course not doing any harm to them.
now, let's look things at the bright side. its time to toughen myself. mentally, spiritually and physically.
Biar beribu parut luka menghiris kalbu
Hanya keikhlasan cinta menjadi penawar
Sekalipun diriku terbuang di mata insan
Engkau Maha Mengerti kekalnya cinta ku ini
izinkan aku meniti dihamparan cintaMu.. _unic_
cinta pada ayah ibu membuatkan aku memilih jalan ini. cinta padaMu membuatkanku terus meniti. permudahkanlah jalan ini.. Rabbi yusahhil.
alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal wa ni'mah.
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